Flying with Issues

Yesterday as I wrote out my Flylady plan, it felt so satisfying!

That positive feeling was a fleeting one.

As the day wore on, and I would work in 15 min increments- and was not experiencing immediate perfect, lasting results, I became increasingly discouraged.

I strive to remind myself that this is just the nature of the beast. “This” being depression, ad/hd, negative self talk. Just because I think this way, just because these feelings are the “go to” feelings, does not mean they are actually me. I have always said I have negative thoughts. But more recently, I have come to describe it as These thoughts attack me.

I heard a sermon once that exactly describes the nature of these thoughts: The devil will constantly bombard you to sin, to mess up, to just indulge, it will be fun, it will be no big deal. And then when you give in, he then constantly tells you what a big deal it was, how horrible it was, etc. The attacks never end.

When I heard that, I was so ASHAMED because I didn’t even need the devil, I was doing it to myself! So I resolve not to continue in that.

For one thing, I acknowledge that I am actually trying to help myself. All be it, in the wrong way! But my intentions are good. I tell myself it always feels wrong in the beginning. It always feels like the negative feeling will never end. And the positive feelings feel so very temporary! I tell myself to just watch and see. See if things don’t get better.

Flylady Kat

I don’t recall how I originally found her, but I had heard of Flylady Kat from Kimmy from She’s in her Apron. Kimmy was not a perfect mom and homemaker. She was a hard working, lovable, person who was working to be more organized.

At one point, Flylady had a mentoring program where you could pay a Flylady Mentor to help you one on one. Flylady Kat was one of those mentors. She now had a Youtube channel with daily(7 days a week) instructions for the day based on the flylady system. I just jumped in and started watching the daily videos, Here is the link to the one from today, when I am writing this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BrKriOqims

Kat gives daily instructions for Stay at Home flybabies, or Kat’s L.I.O.N.S (she didn’t want us to be called kittens!) LIONS came to stand for Living In Our New Strength. She is firm but kind and her lovely voice is a nice replacement for the critical voice in my head. She even has a Patreon that is a reasonable $5 a month that I was a member of for several months. She answers comments and posts videos there Monday-Friday. If you want an extra boost, that is a great addition to watching her Youtube channel.

Several months went by and I was watching Flylady Kat everyday and on Youtube and even following her on Patreon. I was having a moderate amount of success. But every month I was re- decluttering the zones and not seeing the results I wanted. I knew I was disconnecting somewhere and could not figure out what was missing.

Then I came upon another Flylady Mentor who now vlogs on YouTube and I will talk about her next time.

I first heard of Flylady around about 1999. I love to plan and though I printed out everything they had to offer, I didn’t make a whole lot of progress.

A few years ago, after moving into our dream house, I discovered cleaning videos on Youtube. It was so satisfying watching someone make a room neat before my very eyes(often in high speed).

I stumbled across How Jen Does It . She was a homemaker who had a cleaning system based off of Flylady’s zones. It was exactly who I wished I was. Sparkling clean home, home cooked meals. And she worked out.

Well, watching videos like this did help me, but they didn’t really help me tap into my own natural style of organizing and homemaking. I was basically trying to become something I admired.

It wasn’t until I heard another YouTube Vlogger mention the Flylady System as taught by Flylady Kat. I didn’t know it, but that was going to be instrumental in helping me understand the whole Flylady system!

The Journey Begins

After ~~agonizing for some time~~ researching,it is simply time to jump in.

Even though I don’t have a proper picture. Or a tagline.

At some point, I just got tired of being scared of all the “what ifs”. It is time to do the thing that actually sounds fun: writing and sharing.

I make so many mistakes, maybe I can save someone else a few steps.

My plan is to write about my daily activities and struggles. I am a huge fan of flylady, and I also freezer cook. Neither of those come naturally, and I would love to share how I actually sometimes make those things happen!